Hold me clothes and don’t let go the feeling of security is what you could bring to me loving me so close me feeling like you’ll never let go the love that burns inside you I will feel everytime my body touches yours I simmer with love but also fear the love of you will not be lust but more of trust I’ll give you my heart my mind and my body but promise you’ll never let go tell me I can trust you tell me from your heart not your mouth I want your heart it’s promise to always. Be mind I’m selfish when it comes to mines so done be alarmed that my love will be firer in your veins my touch will be like a snipers aim believe me when I tell you this love will be yours all the way from time to time it will never die
Pain hurt what’s makes them so different
From. A place that once shined so bright laughter so high smiles so pure but things have changed from the place I once loved they say good things don’t last forever but why is it so I wonder is it because we forget about the little things and envy much more why can’t we have the place I loved before today so sad and cold makes you feel as a volcano ready to explode the darkness on a place that once glowed people wake up and see what is Finna unfold I miss the place I once loved the home of so much love and now it’s gone and who shall I hold God has held me all along this feeling of the place that used to glow has been blown out like a tornado on a little home Tears can’t put the fire out on the flame that no longer thrives it was blew down when they took her soul
Mind is num so num all I feel is my heart beating this feeling I’m feeling is unexpected it comes and it goes like a sea shell on the shore be washed away by wave pulling it close the moon lights beaming on the sand as my tears beam to my pillow I hug so dear imperfection what a silly fear jealous so ugly gives you nightmares emotions I’m feeled with ohh if the cup just tipped over and hit the surface will my emtions be shown then I’m human I laugh hard and car harder what do you think that I’m a robot made of tin so empty inside in may feel but I have a heart that beats so strong embellished in my skin that makes me who I am where I from a place you wouldn’t want to know
Have too much pride to beg mama raised me well so I thank God for her I love that women more than words can describe but I knew this day would come so maybe that’s why the tears come and go it hurts the most looking at my niece and wondering what she’ll think my mama loved thar child so much God why why why is all I want to know but I know there was a purpose I just have to wait but I can’t even image a life with out her but I go on day to day with all these feelings deep inside I just want her back I’m so anger frustration all in once I swear to shit I’ll fuck some shit up I can’t deal with this shit sometime I just want to break down and cry but no ones here to wipe my tears so I hold them in I
Am not to be weak
Pretty as a picture is the type of girl I want to be sometimes I do things that aren’t me bite my tongue when it’s really trying to break free listen to people who don’t see me maybe that is my insecurity it’s about the way I feel in heels with the prettiest girls or is it apart of my insecurities it’s a game the way I see why do I keep up with such material things What is it about me that no one sees I’m not the girl i portray to be pictures of things I love to be but I’m stuck in a body that my mind doesn’t know how to be I Want the image of the girl in the picture that is as pretty as can be it’s Friday night where should I be Club hopping trying to be this girl that isn’t me pose for the camera so I can post a image that isn’t me hmm I much I wish life was so sweet damn why do I need the image of the perfect dream hmmm it’s all something I feel I need to be no need for comments because I take them too deep and I don’t know why I let it phase me but I guess it’s a insecurity pretty picture pretty picture why can’t have the abnormality image of what life really brings it’s just All about the material things I Kling to just to avoid my insecurities why care what people think when you know they have some insecurities why want to hang with the ones you believe are thee coolest you know that’s a insecurity I’m too strong to have a pretty picture so I prefer thee abnormal one to show that my life was full of challenges and not image that is only possible to dream
I don’t like your touch can’t stand your look it’s mean to say but I really don’t see you that way the attraction isn’t there so this will go no where please excuse my French but boy I can’t take this shit just leave me alone and quit trying to my me yo chick sorry to say but I just don’t see you that way I dont dream of your touch or evening falling in love but your so nice you would treat me so right but the thing is I don’t want to be your type you can’t be alone and boy I’m not going to be your hold can’t make myself feel feelings that aren’t there bc I refuse to try to love when the love can never be there maybe it’s the clothes or the way the body stares but it’s not I just dont see you that way so please leave it here
Still can’t believe your not here with me never would of thought I would have to dream about you not in my wedding to see me bare my first child it hurts so much but my mind is in a denial why is this so it plays over and over in my head on the last words I said hmm all I do is have blank stares of the hope that its still a nightmare
Been thinking alot about some things I want your touch I Want so much from you but you are not ready why does my hurt love you so much I dream of us together having babies and taking it to the next level but you can’t see me they way I want you too damn boy look that’s all I want you to do its more than sex with me I see a future that could possible be but doesn’t look like it because you won’t look at me
Window shopping on the days I can pull out the black card n buy everything to imagination.